I can't explain

There are those times when you get so frustrated that you fall on your knees gripping the edge of your bed in despair.

It is in those moments that so passionately in my mind, as if I were physically crying out, "Why God? Why?"

I sit.

I wait.

Nothing ever happens.

Slowly, your grip loosens and you realize you're acting stupid.

You immediately kneel as straight and humbly as you can. You tell God how sorry you are. For the way you're acting.

That's when you show how much you trust him. You know that he is doing everything and he really loves you.